I let myself feel lovedI’m trapped in my mindI’m lost in the soundsOf all my silent cries The silence I seeBetween my worldsI let myself smileWhen the pain sinks in I paint my skinWith blood redDepend on depressionTo let me live My mind is a messI hate my every moveI walk a mileJust to fall back to you  Every path I tookEvery wall I sawMy mind stopped working I couldn’t talk In a crowd of strangers Talking and chatter You stole my voice My life in your hands  Depend on your handsThat aren’t there Depend on your armsThat push me away Depend on anxiety To keep me from dying Depend of painTo keep my from going sane