to my depression,

 

you brought me

countless of restless nights

just to remind me i'm losing this fight

this battle

this war

that you dare to conquer in my mind

 

you go by the name depression

and oh god how i've seen your 

progression

in my mind

reminding me that all i want is to die

 

you're ruining my mind

yet the only words you'll allow me to say

are

"i'm fine."

"i'm fine."

"i'm fine."

 

"maybe happiness comes with your knife"

"maybe you should just end your life"

and as things get repeated over and over

they don't sound as bad as when they were 

first said,

i'm conditioned

to believe the words inside my head

 

you go by the name depression

i'm always wondering how you have so

much strength

to become my obsession

growing to unmeasurable lengths

 

and when i find someone to love

you won't let me test the shallow waters

of their heart

to slowly swim into the nice pool

instead you'll drag me in

by the ankle

to the rough freezing ocean

jumping to conclusion

showing me that drowning is better

then putting myself in pain again

that this one person is only there to pity

me

and that's what i should see

not to make me happy

because that would be too easy

 

you go by the name depression

and you never seem to want to leave

because your main goal is to see me 

unhappy

because you tell me

"i don't deserve happiness"

"i'm not good enough"

and 

"i'll never be"

 

when it's all said and done

i really do hope you had your fun

 

cause what a waste of time

would be your little trip to my mind.