What does it mean, when something happens so much you get accustomed to it? When being taken advantage of has a file saved in your muscle memory? When rape is a 4 letter word that makes any other 4 letter word of significance turn evil? Love is a word that is no longer loving.. love is followed, is drugged, is hurt, is destroyed, is designed by the same author who made rape. It’s hate. Hate is a word that I am accustomed to. It’s a word that I love.