To the Man in the Green Wool Cap
I saw you on the side of the highway this morning.
You stepped off the shoulder
And launched yourself into those golden trees.
A hiking backpack hugged your waist
And marked you with the title I covet most:
Adventurer.
We sped by at seventy miles per hour.
My cell phone camera, pressed to the window,
Failed over and over again
To capture those trees
And how they melted the coarse mountains
Like butter on toast.
Later I hiked two miles on a crowded trail
And returned the same night
To tap water and pillows
While you filtered spring water
And cushioned your ear against the jagged earth
With a bunched-up flannel shirt.
In your backpack, stowed away for tomorrow
Are granola bars and dreams.
My dreams.
And my fears.
My heart flees to where you are,
Beneath the cold unsympathetic stars.
I want to exhaust my body
Make my legs shake
My shoulders ache.
I want to sleep pressed against the dirt,
Sense the heightened energy of my warm blood,
Marvel at my curling toes,
And listen to the music of my electric mind.
Where are you?
And where have you gone with my dreams?
Scolding Logic calls me home.
Quit dreaming
It says.
You have school tomorrow.
Be grateful for what you have.
You are very lucky.
And so I convince my yearning heart
That it is content with day trips to the mountains.
Man in the Green Wool Cap,
Does Logic speak to you too?
Sometimes I wish it was quieter.
My life feels laid out before me
Like train tracks chasing some horizon
That doesn’t exist.
And yes, it is beautiful.
Yes, I am grateful.
But I am a dreamer.
I imagine you are too,
And we dreamers always want more.
Where are you going with those dreams of mine?
I fear they will never be more than dreams,
Dreams so small they fit in your backpack
Lightweight and disposable
Carried far across the mountains
Until they atrophy from neglect.
Man in the Green Wool Cap,
I admit I do not like you.
You have shown me my dreams
And now I can never forget them.
I cannot pretend that dreams are for movies
Because I have seen them on the side of the highway.
And they are the most beautiful thing a person can possess.
I almost wish I hadn’t seen you carrying them today,
Because now I want them back.
So I am asking you kindly,
Please return them as soon as possible.
From now on I will carry my dreams myself.
Sincerely yours,
Adventurer