To feel at ease...pleased with my inner being. A self reliance is what I need. I wanna breathe...feel alive valued as much as a person's time is it bad that I want so badly to be adored floored like a goddess queen being and showered with love like that if fairy-tales and love songs. I look back and ask what is it about me that is so wrong to be discarded like nothing and to be made out less than something. 

 To fill this void and fill my fulfillment somehow...how do I reach this unseen hill that I climb daily to find a reason in myself to keep living on. Maybe I wasn't made to live a life like everyone else seeing how my cards have been dealt. The frustrations  I've felt still flow under deep with ache for what more than I say can someone be my understanding or am I destined to journey this walk alone?