I wonder why they say i'm beautiful...

What's beautiful about.. 

Someone who cries at night

What's beatiful about the constant depression

I oversee my father as he lies..

He lied about loving me

He lied to me.. 

My heart in poverty feening for his love

He lied....

He told me I was his world

I cry but mending a broken heart aint easy

He lied to me...

His....

His fatherly love...

It's not there 

As I scream help

Hoping that someone hears my silent cries

As I see my father....

He looks at me...

But not with a proud face.

It's like he's disgusted with me, Like..

Like he doesnt want me

One shot, two shots, Puff puff not even that 

Can take this pain... But

Daddy I need you... Just 

Listen for my cries

And love me..

Love me unconditionally as 

A daughter.