Do I
Do I wanna know or not?
Could I even stand the thought?
The very foundation of my heart is at stake.
Being held together by the stitches of time.
Am I overanalyzing?
The thought is tantalizing.
A premeditated action, or a simple mistake?
Is this a hill that I am willing to climb?
I've come so far, but I seem to be stuck.
Is this gonna scar? That'd be my luck.
How could someone have the heart to do such a thing?
Or maybe it's their lack of one... I can hear the fat lady sing.
This time with a voice, piercing and cold.
She laughs at my pain, the new and the old.
She's not shy about it either,
She sings in my face.
But I can make it stop...
Gone without a trace.
Boy that'd be nice,
I could forget it all.
The deception, the secrecy,
That cursed love into I'd fall.
I should've seen it coming,
He wasn't very good at hiding his tracks.
Maybe I chose to ignore it...
I didn't have solid facts.
But all is clear now,
The veil of lies has been lifted.
I gave him one too many chances,
Fuck this kind heart I've been gifted.
Giving the benefit of the doubt,
With every suspicious action.
Like a pair of work shoes,
Without any traction.
When the going got tough,
And the floor got slippery.
I'd fall into his web of lies,
A master of trickery.
But I gotta pull myself together,
Be strong, move along.
Break these chains by which I'm tethered,
Sing a new song forever.
For there will come a day,
When my heart will meet it's match.
For there will come a day,
When my eye he will catch.
The question is then:
Do I wanna know or not?
Could I even stand the thought?
Of getting myself hurt again.