It’s not saying goodbye but more of I’ll see you later.

Saying goodbye isn’t easy. In fact it’s the hardest thing that I could have done.Death is scary. I still feel you with me and I dream about you. I hear your voice well I lay sleeping. It’s not saying goodbye but more of I’ll see you later. The only question I have is Can you feel my tears fall on your grave well I place the flower on it? Can you feel that I miss you and think about you? I blame myself for your death best friend. I should of been there for you when you need me the most but instead I was "in love" with your brother.  

Too busy to take a second out of my day to be there. It was because of I that you’re no longer here and I miss you. On February 13, 2013 you took your life. A day before Valentine’s Day. I walk to your house because it had been two months when your brother and I split. I came over to bring your Valentine’s Day gift and to say I’m sorry, but I founded your body lying there in a puddle of blood. On your arm it read ALONE. I felt my heart sank and felt tears down my face as I hold your body scream for your mother who wasn’t home. You committed suicide.

You were always there for me when I need you the most. Where was I? So now Its a year and a few days has gone bye and I never stop thinking about you and visiting your grave. I put flowers on your grave every month. Can you feel me? Can you ever forgive me? I need you! I need you to know that no matter what happens I’m always here for you and that you’re not ALONE. You have me. I AM here and I AM not leaving again. I hope I can see you again and you will have open arms for me. I remember it’s not saying goodbye but more like I’ll see you later. I will met you again best friend and we will never see the end.

    Till now I always seen death as scary but I now see that death is peaceful. No one knows what happen after death but I like to believe I will met my best friend. ”Life asked Death, why do people love me, but hate you? “Death responded because you are a beautiful lie and I’m a painful TRUTH.” I miss you. The only thing keeping me together is It’s not saying goodbye but more of I’ll see you later.