A brief recollection of life
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I'm determined
you can't deter me
I won't stop going like I'm fuckin furby
these irrelavent motherfuckers they can't hurt me
I have a hell of a dream
I gotta prove that I'm worthy
I got a tarnished self-esteem
but this ambition is sterling
so put on your harness
and sit in your seat
I'm gunna take you on a journey
from Chi-raq
to the middle east
with death I was flirting
I was just trying to fix my teeth
but I was stuck demonstrating and learning
of a corrupt ass regime
of suppression and of yearning
motherfuckers getting shot just cause their name's Ali
I promise you'll never see that shit on MSNBC
and I promise the violence will never see an end
as long as government puppets are on CNN
you'll never truly know the extent of the blood that is shed
I still remember the first time I saw a pool of red
I want all the bullshit to end
I want all the unfortunate messages to be sent
I want motherfucker to put intellect in their heads
instead of whippin porches and gettin some head
I wanna take pride in this life that I've led
I wanna ride the road to riches
I want happiness
I want success
You can keep the weed and bitches
I'm saying motherfuck street cred
cause who the fuck are you to me but a bunch of xanax heads?
but dont get me wrong I've done my fair share of that
even after seeing my mom on a stretcher
with an empty script of it next to the bed
laying comotose vomiting violently
I cried as she wretched
I pleaded please don't leave me
willing her to live with every fiber of my being
but she just kept on heaving it was relentless
she might resent that I said this
but since that night I had thoughts of suicidal intentions
I became reckless
unprescedented depression
all the ecstasy and unprotected sex definitely reflected it
I adopted the mentality of watch where you're steppin
if you challenged me you were gamblin
cause the man I called dad walked out on the family again
and evertime the food stamps ran out
I could'nt stand him