One Hundred and Eighty Three Miles
With the foggy chilled air amidst the roar of the skies
I lay beneath the gentle sheets within strong arms
Searching for nothing but receiving everything
I receive silk lips gently meeting my own
Meeting my cheek, my temple, my forehead
There is such divinity in the collision of our skin
Such a natural gravitational pull that is stronger than the both of us
A blissful act of affection leaving a beautiful trace of seduction
I receive affirmation, confirmation, validation
And although the foundation of my worth was found elsewhere
You broke ground and I could not stop you
In a new and unfamiliar way that is quite frankly terrifying
Terrifying that I could possibly deserve more than I believe and have always given more than I receive
But that is okay, because terrifying means that I no longer have to settle for less than feeling beautiful and important
Worthy of attention without the removal of my clothing
I receive that fluttering feeling deep within the pit of my stomach
A feeling I didn’t have to bring to my own attention
I did not have to fabricate an occurrence or overwhelm myself with accidental actions
My stomach told my mind what my heart forgot to mention
That perhaps I am dazzled by your words and comforted by your security
Forced to pay notice to the man behind the charm and river blue eyes
I receive a new definition of “friend”
Little did I know a friend could creep into my veins leading to an organ I thought I had hardened
“Just friends” never held so many “but”s and “although”s
I never knew that a friend could make me detest a term such as “friend” so genuinely
I never knew that friendship was one hundred and eighty three miles long
Little did I know being simply your friend was not a natural born gift of mine
But “friend” is a word I will burn into my skin until I acknowledge that “mine” is not a label I can place on you
I receive freedom from a world spinning rapidly around me
I receive slavery to the obligation of organization of feeling induced thoughts
I receive more than I asked for
When I receive you