Dreams.

Complicated, yet infinitly simple

How

How can I have a dream about two people I've not seen in seven years

And not know what to say

My gosh

There are so many questions I had brimming at my tongue

And yet all I could do was stand there and let my mind wander

Wander just like it does in real life

And I could do nothing to stop it because

We are subject to the mind when it comes to dreams 

And no matter how unfair it is

That's the way it works.

I long to see them again

To finally get to ask my questions

Questions I have had seven years to form, yet

They caught in my throat the second I had my oppportunity to ask

Questions like

Do you remember who I am?

Do you remember the last time you saw me?

Because I remember the last time I saw you

Even though I was only young.

Then you'd say 

"You've always been exceptional"

And I'd laugh

But I know you're right because my memory

Is good as an elephant's.

But then there are other questions

Questions like:

How can I keep my faith strong?

Everyone says to pray and read my Bible

But I want a more concrete answer

And I know you'd give it.

And finally I want to know

Why?

Why are you so good at everything?

You fuffilled your purpose so now you're gone

I get that

But did you have to die so soon

Before I could adapt

Before I caould have enough courage to make friends

You had to leave 

Leave me alone

With no one to talk to

No one to make me feel 

Like I was not an outsider

And that I may have been somewhat normal

And then there was no one to talk to about 

Theories and Thoughts

And you would have been so accepting

I know you would have

People still talk about the both of you

And you are not forgotten in my mind either

I want you to know that

That you are not

And will never

Be forgotten 

And that Our Entire Family

Is stronger 

And closer

And even though you're not here 

We feel your loss

All the time.