Kiss of a Lifetime #YOWO
Location
Not a day went by
Without me feeling
The same place I lie
Focused on the ceiling
At the corner of my eye… sorrowful rain
Down my arm blood trickled… with no pain
I was certain I would die alone
I longed so much for love to be shown
Consumed by depression, I began to cry
Ready to give up, I wanted to die
Walking, head down… I was a nobody
Always viewing the glass as being half empty
But the fire within me grew strong
Maybe, all this time I was wrong
I decided to give it one more try
And so, five years soon rolled by
Now older, I was no better than before
Still so lonely, and heart still tore
My depression hid behind my empty smile
My bottled emotions became one big pile
Then I met a girl, so joyous and kind
She became the only thing that filled my mind
With a laugh so adorable and eyes so precious
A smile so beautiful and hair so luscious
Soon a friendship grew
I wanted to show I could be true
But how could someone so divine
Even think of being mine
I panicked, ‘til delay
And before I got the chance
She already went away
Depression began to taunt… a silly prance
But for some reason… I was not sad
As long as she was happy… I’d be glad
…Eventually the relationship did come to end
And still… I wanted to be more than a friend
We began to talk more
My heart still sore
I felt lonely and lame
She told me she felt the same
Opposites attract they say…
But we decided to do it our way
One night under stars so peaceful
We said something to each other so meaningful
She asked who the girl I liked was, and I said “you”
She replied with an “awe” and said “I like you too”
I never dreamt I would see the day
I had but one thing left to say
And so the following morning
I spent all day thinking
About how that night was the greatest by far
Lost in thought to the point that I almost got hit by a car…
It was time to check for destiny
Time to see if it were meant to be
Even though I was certain it would be a no
I didn’t want to regret not asking so…
Nervously I asked “do you want to go out”
She asked me what I was talking about
I told her my love for her was strong and pure
And just like that, she said “sure’
Suddenly the depression that caused my heart to ache
Drifted away and happy did wake
But still, I felt it would not last
But why still worry of the past
I thought to myself, it would be for the best
If she broke up with me, when she lost interest
Our time together I will forever cherish
And if you must, I promise I will not perish
But her love for me was like a dove
A dove that soared so high above
Her hugs so warm
with a lovely form
Holding hands, no better a moment
But still… something so very urgent
Depression was still there, so awful it seems
Though less, it occurred more often than my dreams
And it came to me, a great appeal
That maybe a kiss could break the seal
We talked about it, and she seemed fine
A simple task, two lips combine
We stared for a while, and then I leaned in
But she looked at me crazy... as though I was kin
She then gave me a kiss on the cheek
I felt the feeling of being cold and weak
Along with a long lost feeling, pain
Something I missed, was I now sane…
An instant replay of the even played in my head
I was an idiot. I rather be dead
Why didn’t our lips meet, am I just a fool
To think that you loved me, or am I a tool…
I reached for something sharp, I wanted a knife
But the kiss on the cheek, told me you were my wife
So no longer did I feel cold or pain
I tested it out, by walking through rain
And although I think her kiss is the key
To release my depression, to set it all free…
For her, I will no longer force a kiss
As much as I Know, I will truly miss
For her, I will live with depression…
I will no longer show its expression
Because she makes my heart sing…
Because… she is my everything…