Your Old Friend
Dear Dude,
When I took those first steps...
Not into the world, no
Into your life.
Who did I look like?
I refuse to believe I didn't remind you of anyone.
Perhaps... an old friend?
An old infatuation?
An old Lover?
No?
Then who?
Months passed after we met
I grew to appreciate you
I grew to... fall in love??
No, no, no...
I grew to be grateful of the person I got to know.
Not only did you show me what it means to open up
but also what it means to trust.
A year passed since we first met
But.. what about... that old "someone"...?
that question was never answered
Who was it?
Who did I remind you of?
It wasn't the old Lover
Or the old infatuation
no. I saw it in your eyes when we first met.
It was an old friend
The friend who became your true ally
the friend that listened and loved you
that is who I reminded you of.
Did you ever give me that answer?
No.
but you did open up enough for me to catch on
The old friend I will never get to meet
Me or anyone for that matter
The old friend that changed your whole world after they left
The old friend who's death affected me beyond its occurance.
I remind you of them
You felt like you had to protect me
You didn't know me for very long but that was your immediate stance
You had to make sure I did not have the same ending as your friend
I was your do over
to the one that got away
to the one that left
to the one you could not save
I still don't know your friend's name
It was a boy I was sure of that when you told me his ending.
But his name?
His name?
His name?
when will I ever know?
Whhat is the name of this person who I remind you of?
The friend who has an affect on how you treat me?
The friend who has made you afraid to hurt me.
Afraid I will never want to hear from you again
Afraid of going though the same blame you went though with him
Afraid I will soon leave this world
Just like your old friend.
What is his name?
Love,
Cece