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All the things I wanted to say
Would not express how I feel
Im glad I didn’t love you
It was only a game
A word that just seemed right
You wasted a year months days hours minutes seconds
And every second I was with you I kept hoping for more
For better
And that’s not something you could give
You took
You have no idea how I feel
I never told you
I was afraid to embarrass you
But you never cared about embarrassing me
It’s funny how when the tears run down your face they hide in my eyes
Like all the things I wanted to say
They’ll never get out
I never told anyone
I trusted you
I knew you
Maybe I did love you
That’s something you’ll never know
Because you’ll never know me
Now your time is up
Why do you cry?
We both know I put so much more into this than you
Don’t be a sympathetic fuck
I don’t need your sympathy, since when do you even have any?
Apparently you don’t need my love
Good luck finding better
I know I will because better than you is someone who will care
Who will go first
Not leave me hanging
Not treat me like an item
You were a person to me but I was a boy to you
You told me you had to have me
It would have been nice to feel like I was needed
What you needed was a friend was a name was a fuck
That’s not me
But excuse me for wanting to be more than that
You didn’t need me
We don’t need each other
And you would say
“We beat the odds and found each other”
I should have known then that you were desperate to find another boy
Who liked you as a boy
But I’m more than another boy-I have a name a face a heart
You cant put that on display
And that’s why when I see you my heart races
It doesn’t stop
I don’t know why
You make me nervous
Because I gave you so much and you didn’t even see who I am
Who is really me
And I don’t know why
My heart doesn’t stop when it sees you
I know I gave more but that’s just who I am
I give you take
That’s who we are
That’s why I thought it worked
Until you didn’t want to take anymore
You made me fall over
Eyes skin disposition
What did you even see in me?
Just someone there
But I’m more than someone there
I wasn’t just there for you, I was here for you
It felt right it felt good it was fast it was slow it was hot it was sad
I don’t laugh I don’t cry I was sad I was mad I was paralyzed
Now I don’t know
But now youll never know
Because like the tears you’ll never know
These words are unspoken