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Because I have imperfect Spanish,
I am never Mexican enough to those who speak better than me
Because I have imperfect English,
I am always too Mexican for those who speak better than me
I have always been questioned why
My first name and last name don’t quite fit together
As if I can quantify the melanin in my skin
As if there is a line drawn directly down the center of my body
As if I am a physical representation of my parent’s re-marriage
Because others always like to point out
Which of my organs belong to either of my parents
But never belong to myself
It was in high school that I developed my identity
Huerta and Chavez taught me that I belong to la raza
Anzaldua taught me that a wild tongue cannot be tamed
I am justified in being exactly who I am
So I stopped defining myself by how I live up to other’s expectations
So I started defining myself by how I live up to my own expectations
I define myself by the relentless passion I have advocating for my people
I define myself by the way I give back through teaching others to advocate for themselves
And I may always be imperfect if I forget that
I am always perfect being me