there are no winners
other than the war itself.
If you get out of war alive there is still a piece of you that was wounded.
I protected the country I love,
from people who want to hurt MY FAMILY.
In return, I gave part of myself.
I no longer feel safe.
Even after I leave the war zone.
I'm still uneasy.
of what I did
what I saw.
It rips at me everyday.
I wake up in the middle of the night covered in sweat and shaking.
The visons of red fill my head.
I feel weak.
I am weak.
I can't let anyone see me like this.
I can't ask for help.