I'm a coward

with ice cold feet

i was too strong to tell you

that you make me weak

i was too cocky 

to tell you that I was afraid

And I was too used to replying to "how are you"

with I'm okay

for you it's so simple

to spill out your heart and your mind

But I've always been so different

so for me it's gonna take time

i wanted to tell you that 

I admire your courage that I lack

cause even when I curved you

you took a u-turn and came right back

in fact

you deserve more than a poem

you deserve an apology

But you know I'm too arrogant

to admit my flaws and defeat

but that's how I feel

when I see you living life without me

and it's all my fault

I'm my own worst enemy