Wir Sind Stolz auf Sie, Egal Was
The mind is an
amazing,
strange,
horrifying
Little place.
Or so I’ve been told.
Mine tries erasing the filters.
Tries to let me be free.
just a FOREWARNING,
I’VE BEEN KNOWN
to speak LOUDLY,
to speak my MIND,
to type in all CAPS.
BECAUSE I can.
BECAUSE I don’t like FILTERS that tell me
"YOU CAN'T DO THAT"
or
"THAT'S AGAINST THE RULES."
I’m not afraid saying so.
Making Poetry.
Writing Words.
It lets me do something
Outstanding.
When writing,
I
Can
Type
In
Short Lines,
Or I can use prominent words that prolong the lines I type.
This causes the mind to become exasperated with my apparently sesquipedalian predispositions.
However, filters
Change
The
Facts.
In 9th grade,
People asked if I was
depressed.
The word stung
Like a bee.
A swarm of them.
All stinging at once.
I smiled and always said I was
Tired.
Sleepy.
Needed a nap.
The filters changed the
FACTS.
In reality, I was afraid.
I was afraid that I was
SCHizophrENIC.
Maybe I had
PTSD.
Or maybe,
Just maybe,
I JUST WAS UNHAPPY.
Finally,
I was able
To
Accept
Myself.
I tried my best to remove the filters.
I got help.
Problem is,
These issues,
These filters,
They stick with you for a very long time.
However,
There is one treatment that makes me
Happy.
That allows me to be myself
COMPUTERS.
I’m not a big fan of “social interaction”.
I don’t mind.
I love the computers.
They can’t judge me.
They don’t hate me.
They can’t bully me.
I can be myself behind a computer.
And I must say,
It’s the best feeling in the world.
As my German ancestors would say:
Wir sind stolz auf Sie, egal was.
Or in English…
We’re proud of you, no matter what.