I remain uncuffed but still full of love for this boy

Not a man

Who won’t take my heart into his hands

And I’m not sure he deserves it

But I still have these Wife Thoughts

 

Thoughts

Of working my  ass off so we have an income but you can follow your dreams

Thoughts

Of your mom calling me daughter

Thoughts

Of having you becoming my child’s father

These thoughts don’t deserve to be thought

 

And these thoughts for a boy who won’t be with me

But will sleep

Watch TV with me

Come and eat with me

Tell his dreams to me

 

I am not your wife

Not even a girlfriend

I am just a friend

 

Sick and tired of these wife thoughts

Put myself under the knife thoughts

Keep me up at night thoughts

Planning out my life thoughts

 

Seeing him with another makes my heart stop

….Yet I still keep having

These Wife Thoughts

 

I don’t think I’ll ever

Stop wondering

If you think about me

Like I think about you

 

Please think about me

Or else I’m wasting my time

With these fucking wife thoughts