Why Can't I Be Like...
Why Can't I Be Like...
There comes a time
where everyone does
or has something
While I just sit
and look around
at what's going on.
Knowing that I can't
won't be
and ever be
like them.
I can't help it.
Comparing myself to others
is just something natural
and it tears at me,
depressing me,
hurting me,
killing me
inside.
Life seems so simple
when I look at other's.
It's so unfair
but I know it's not.
I can't help it.
I'm jealous of people,
they always have something better
than I do and I want something like it.
Why can't my life
be like theirs?
A girlfriend,
great friends,
an interesting past,
and happiness.
One of those,
just one,
would be nice.
I know I have
at least one of them,
comparing myself to theirs
is what gets me.
Why can't I be like
them.
I feel so defeated
because I won't,
I know I can't ever
be like them.
The good things
that people have
seem to skate
around
and away
from me.
Like I can't
find the
good things
in life.
I have found
some of these things,
I can't and won't
go after them.
I like my friend,
but she has a boyfriend.
I can't and won't
hurt that,
it's not in me to do
since she's already happy.
It depresses me
that I get closer to her
every day as
we become
better friends
only to know
that we will only
ever be friends.
This depresses me more
since this
isn't
the first time
either.
I was like her,
with someone
that made me happy,
but she hurt me,
left me,
found another
soon after.
I don't know
if it's my fault,
or that
I'm cursed
to be upset
depressed
and hurt.
Why can't I be like
them...