Why now do you hold me down?
Why now do you care what path i'm on?
Why now do you take my freedom away?
Why now do I have to be stuck in my chair?
why now do I have to wait?
Questions that I ask
Questions that are unanswered
Questions that are still on the brink of extinction
But I still ask more
Yet with every question I ask
You won't listen to me.

I'm sitting behind you
Looking at how tall you stand
Your confidence rises as mine sinks
The air is cold, with shivers down my spine i became numb
But being numb, means no feelings

My tears aren't a reality
My screams are muffled
My aching heart is now shattered
My trust in you has left

You say I can come to you
You say you'll listen
You say I'm perfect
you say you're there

Yet when I talk
When I ask
When I'm in need
You ignore me
You leave when I truly need you

You complain that I'm quite
You tell me that you you'll support me
You tell me that you're there

But I'm know I'm forgotten
Only now do you see
Only now when I want to be free
Do you put restraints on me

My wings are clipped
My hair is trimmed
My clothes are stripped
My life has stopped

I want out
I want freedom
I want love
But I can't have it
For it is out of reach

Why now
Why at this point do you want me to stay
When I'm almost of age
Did you remember that I'm sitting behind you?
So you can protect me from the blazing light.
That I so yearned to see
To feel the warmth that you deprived from me

But as I reach
As I step forward
As I smile
You hold me by the arms and legs
Taunting me with its warmth
Keeping me away from what I want to see.

Where I sit was the place you set me,
From toddler, to a child, then to a teen.
Did I sit still waiting, for the permission to leave
As I reach the age of 18, wanting to rebel
Wanting to be free has finally kicked in
Yet you put chains
Rope
Twine
Belts
And set me in a cage, so I will never escape your protective state.