I look in the mirror

I see someone

I know this person

but at the same time I don't

It's me

but

it's not

I see myself as the world sees me

not as I see myself

A pretty boy,

nice hair,

the best clothes,

a smile

 

We are told that that is what we need to be

Society tells us we can't feel

Put on a smile they say

Forget about your feelings

Save them for when you're alone

And that's what I do

 

I don't speak

I think

I think and think and think

I get jealous

I get upset

I write to vent

 

But that's not who you see

Tomorrow I'll wake up

I'll throw that smile on my face

and no one will know a thing

That's just how society wants it to be