Who am I?

When everything I

was dies,

When everything I

thought I knew was a lie.

Who am I?

Who tries to be something she's not,

Who cried and fought

And in the end had

forgotten what she sought.

Who am I?

To dwell on things

that no longer matter

Who used to think

that pain made us

stronger

Who can not stand it any longer.

Who am I?

Who speaks of light

Who tries to show

others out of night

Who can not even win

her own fight.

Who am I?

I have no answer.

The pain and darkness

grows like cancer

The mask I bear

is a clumsy dancer

It's only there 

To hide an empty manner.