When You're Gone
Day One:
This morning I woke up crying
I miss you
I couldn’t talk to all the well-wishers
I couldn’t even talk to my mom
I miss you
Day Ten:
Does the pain ever leave?
I miss having you next to me in bed
I miss your warmth
I miss your love
I miss you
Why doesn’t the pain go away?
Day 17:
I talk to you sometimes, you know
When I make dinner,
I get your opinion
Do you want to steaks medium or rare?
I miss you
Day 20:
Ms. Whitmore came over today
Do you remember her?
You always said she was too nosey for her own good
I wanted to laugh about it with you
I miss your humor
I miss you
Day 28:
It’s been almost a month now
The pain is still here
Still just as strong
Why doesn’t it go away?
Will it ever?
I miss you
Day 34:
I smiled today
Is that a bad thing?
I feel like I’m betraying you
I know you loved my smile
So I want to keep it just for you
I miss you
Still
Day 68:
I spoke to your brother today
He sounds so much like you
I thought it would be comforting
But it just hurts
He smiles like you too
That hurts
He laughs like you
That hurts too
Why won’t the pain go away?
I miss you
Day 99:
I laughed today.
It wasn’t loud,
But I did it
Mom was shocked
I didn’t feel guilty
Is that OK?
It still hurts
I miss you
Day 365:
It’s been a whole year
I visited your grave today
I left you a note
The pain has lessened
Is that a bad thing?
I miss you
Always
Day 600:
I’ve been laughing now
And smiling at jokes
Sometimes I’ll visit your family
Sometimes I go for walks by the river
I still miss you
I still remember you
But it doesn’t hurt as much
I don’t think that’s a bad thing
I’m not over you
But I’m past the worst of the pain
I still miss you
But I’m getting better
I still miss you
But I’m living again
I still miss you
But you wouldn’t want me to live my life like this
I know that
I love you
Still.
Always.
Forever.