When I was a child
My eyes were bright like
Fire
They used to be
Filled with ability
Filled with
Desire
But there is no use is
Wishing airplanes to fly higher when
The pilot turns
The controls for
Down
I
Cannot bare to
Laugh in your face
Fighting my frown
Wishing it were different
Hoping on a star
At the same time
I cannot take lemon into my mouth
And then call in lime
I don't care how similar they are
I am constantly told to
Believe in some sublime being
Tell him what I'm going through
Look up to the skies
Well why does he not bring me
Sanity
When I cry at night
Children
Grow Up
Minds
Expand
Do not confuse
Growing up
With womanhood
Do not confuse
A child
With a man
Do not
Push me
Down on my knees
And then lend me your hand
Do not love me
Only to pity me
Into loving you back
Do not throw your hands
At my face and
Expect any slack
You wouldn't
Kick a rock wall
With bare feet and
Expect it to crack
When I was a child I thought I was God
As a child I thought I was Satan
I wasn't aware that the things I thought I
Loved would be the very things I'd end up
Hating
My mind grew or maybe shrunk
Or maybe stayed the same
Maybe it was small
And the reason I was 'smart' was because I had no room for insolence when it came
Small details add up like pennies and dimes
Like one arson charge
Or a million white collar crimes
Like growing up to fast
Or not growing up in time