When I start to die, I look to the sky

I’m shaking and crying and I don’t know why

And that’s the worst part

Because how can I explain what i don’t even know

What’s wrong they say

But how to respond 

Just accept me already 

I know thats the main problem

But how do you tell that to the person who caused it

How do you say your dying inside

To the person that birthed you

To the person you wish would support you

And so I’m shaking and crying 

But all you see is me laughing a smiling 

You tuck away the memory of seeing me dying

And hide it away, knowing that it's not subsiding