I've been through it all, but you would never know.

Rarely do I let my past baggage show.

I've stolen, abused, lied and used

Who is this person coming to the surface? I'm so confused.

Learned behavior, I thought it would never stay.

Soon I would learn the price I would pay.

The price for being so reckless and following my "friends"

There are only two ways this lifesyle ends.

Dead or in jail, how can I survive?

I just want to go back to feeling alive.

A leap of faith was all I would need

To kill this monster inside of me.

I fought long and hard, and that fight I won.

I gave myself a pat on the back for a job well done.

I came out on the other side.

I was over the mask, I no long wanted to hide.

But if you look really hard, you can sometimes still see

The monster that will always be inside of me.

I've tamed the beast and learned a new way.

This monster fuels me every single day.

You see, there are always multiple faces to all of these people.

But you can determine how much damage that will equal.

I could have given up, I could have quit.

But then my life wouldn't have amounted to shit.

Every day, I reflect and I see

That I wouldn't be who I am today without the monster inside of me.