What if you could change your past

            If you could change one thing from your past

To make your life today better

            Would it actually make a difference?

People say “I wish I didn’t slack off so I was passing my class”

            Or “I shouldn’t have pissed off my parents,

now I don’t have my phone”

But what if the love of your life never asked you out?

            Could that one question change YOUR life?

Mine would have changed…

            The love of my life

My other half

            He was my EVERYTHING

Life was good before the monster snuck out

            Life was perfect for me

Then the secrets of the monster poured out

            Those secrets killed me…

I was miserable…

            Fighting the monster everyday…

No rest…

            No mercy…

It had almost won the battle

            But I kept fighting it

I couldn’t give up

            That’s not how I am

Day by day, the monster would eat me up…spit me out

It mocked me                              He’s worthless

You’re too good for him

You’re the reason he’s like this

You’re better off without him alive

Everyday for a whole year I had to fight the monster

            And try to bring out the real boy I had fallen in love with

I didn’t realize that the monster had taken over him though

            I was blinded by my love for him

What if I wasn’t blinded?

            What if I had left when the monster first came out?

Would life be better?

            Life would be better…

A life with no drugs…or alcohol…or sex…

            A life with a better boyfriend possibly

One who wasn’t controlled by the monster

            I would most likely be much happier

I would still be a virgin if I said no to the monster

            I would be a lot better off without that wretched monster in my life

What if? Is all I can imagine

            What if I could take back that one word?