what i say to you when i turn my skype on mute

what am i doing with you

i know you cant hear me saying this

and i know you never will but

i cant tell the landscape from a back drop at the moment

the lines between reality and my mind are blurring

and i just cant tell what is real 

and what i want to believe

i feel like this is all all a dream

that I'm trying to cover the bitterness in my heart 

with the artificial sweetener of your kiss

but if this isn't real then

why do i forge that I'm in pieces

when you put your arms around me

why does my concience seem clean

when you taint my innocence

and why do i feel so complete when I'm with you

but so empty when i see him 




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