Weak
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You deserved my first more than anyone else
I retired her love like a toy upon the shelf
But the relief was I saw the defects
And although she’s gone I still see the effects
I notice in my expectations and actions
Expecting madness but getting only a fraction
You exceed my needs and satisfy the wants
So why did I feel the need to put on a front?
Like I apologized entirely too much
And used “sorry” like cripple and crutch
Hoping not to upset the princess of fables
I cowered like a dog underneath tables
But now I understand to look past the scars
To let my true self get past the re bars
Protecting the structure surrounding my heart
That I’m not an actor and I’m not playing a part
And I don’t annoy you as much as I thought
And our love is something we deftly wrought
And despite the past and all of the baggage
We can still sit and talk about marriage
I am so weak and terribly keen to desire
She took my virginity, played like a lyre
You deserved it, if only I was stronger
To be a true man and held out a little longer
You are the strong one with all the tact
Despite all the wanting, you keep on track
I’m sorry my lust is Devil’s distract
And that control is something I lack
If I were a man, I would be pure
Through until marriage, I would endure
But now it’s too late, and I’ve failed you
If I knew she, false and you, true
I would have been able to stay holy and chaste
Join our two bodies in marriage, together at last