What if I didn't do what I did?

What if I did follow through with suicide?

What if life was based upon these what ifs?

If I can go back into time to change those what ifs to I dids I would.

Many people tell you they undertsand your pain, your fears, your anxieties, but they don't.

Everyone tries to make you feel "better" but what is better?

If tried to make myself better, would I become bitter?

Is better even an option when everything comes crashing down at once,

you have people tell you they love you and theyd miss you if you were gone,

you have people telling you that life would suck without you,

you have people telling you are not a burden... 

What if I won't miss me? 

What if my life sucks for me all the time?

But what if i'm my own burden?

What if the peeople who told you those exact words were the exact people who made you feel this way?

What if this peom opens up a few eyes? 

Watch what you say..