Travesty
Trying to take back words already spoken
Trying to heal a heart that was born broken
You cannot bury a guilt that’s still unpardoned
And I would know
I would know
Haunted by these apparitions
From whom i can’t beg forgiveness
Can my conscience ever be clear again?
When day and night and every moment
Drowns me deeper in my sin
Is there any way out than further In?
They say I’m going upward
but it feels so much like down
i’m falling on my feet to find
that There’s no safer ground
i’ve betrayed both sides
nothing gets any clearer
when you can’t find a light
i’ll try to walk two paths because
i can’t tell which is right
Gods above, hear me now
i need to be found
Trying to bring back lives already taken
You can’t forgive me
You don’t even know my name
but if you could
i don’t think you could
I killed a man
I killed a child
What kind of gods, these who’d
Reward me
and who’d require
Unexplained travesties
of what i feel i should believe
but can i trust my judgement?
it’s tainted by my heart
i keep it bound and beaten
but i’ve given him a part
so the fault rests with me
the sun won’t stray from heaven
the sea rolls back and forth
i’ll keep the path i’d chosen
turn my face from the north
for i’m the travesty
So this is my penance for loyalties wandered
to feel so much guilt for the wrong i did right
or is it the loss of a service so crippled
that nothing can make it arise
Would you weep? Tell me,
would you cry?
what would it mean to you
If you knew
that I had died
And that i’d wished i’d never tried to want so much
travesty
i’ve corrupted all that i could be
distorted both lives
so i’ll fade like a shadow
for that’s all i am
i need light i need dark
both can’t live in this land
so i’ll die for the faith
that has borne me this far
i’ll slip from the memory
of those i have scarred
and they won’t remember
the travesty that was me