Like any other day. I promised I wouldn't feel this way again. I guess I'm not very good at keeping promises. I cant even breathe sometimes. It hurts it really does, feeling like you're broken all the time. You think you can fix yourself but you can't so you just sit there letting your own mind destroy you. And you want to cry for help but you know you've done it before so you sit there silently with the pain in your stomach and the lump in your throat. You think maybe one day you'll be able to forget this, to leave these feelings behind but you know that you have to live with this pain every single wretched day and you're just tired. If feels like every part of you body is shutting down. You want it to end but you can't just hurt everyone who cares. So for now you just take the pain desperately waiting till the day you can finally disappear....that will be the day....a day of sweet relief...the day you were truly happy.