Time Machine
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I don’t know where I stand
I’m tired or lying to these people
I’m tired of opening up to them
I know they don’t believe me
I don’t have anyone to lean on
I’m alone with no one to talk to even if I do I don’t know how long will they be with me
If so will I be able to keep up with them
I've drifted once far away I’m afraid of getting close to anyone again
My mom is with me who I can’t express everything I feel because I’m afraid I might do the opposite
Something makes me feel I’m still hiding something from her
I wish I never lied and got myself in these tangled knots
When I look at my childhood picture which is hung on the wall of my room I miss those innocent eyes that I had once
Which were taken away from the monster of my dreams, who I thought once was my prince
The monster has taken away my dreams left me in the state that I can’t see my sparkle on my face
My father who had been hurt by his brother and who is still strong enough to provide my sisters love
My father who’s still hurt from the sharp bladed tongue that I have
Who has not healed yet perfectly to make me his princess back again
Who I dream of every night accepting me and holding me in his arms the way he would in my childhood
When I hear the stories of my friends with their father my miss the relation with my father
I want things to go back the way they were when I was small
I wish I had a time machine that would take me back to the time when I could dream of my prince
A time machine that would show me the life I have now.