Time to Grow Up
Time to Grow Up by Jasmyn McCullers
I feel like I’m living life, day by day
Watching my every move, play by play.
Covered in cloth, so my skin doesn’t burn.
Watching what I eat so my stomach doesn’t churn.
Back when I was sixteen, I sure do wish
The drastic change you just cannot miss.
There’s bruises everywhere.
I’m losing my hair
Aches and pains is all I feel
Is she faking? Who knows?
I want my old life back
I never know when it’s going to attack.
Why can’t I be like other 21 year olds?
Is this the story that will be told?
The story of the girl who got way too sick.
Or the story of the girl who’s life turned quick?
She wonders if there was anything she could change,
Wonders why all her efforts went in vein,
Wonders why her life got rearranged.
Was it something that I ate?
Unfortunately this isn’t something that I can break.
I can’t make this go away
No matter how much I pray
Three years has gone by
I’m just glad this something I can hide
It’s not something I’d take with pride
But I can’t just sit and watch my life go by
No matter how hard I try
No matter how hard I cry
It’s time I grow up
If I knew what I know now
I’d make my childhood last somehow
My body is fighting against itself
There’s no need to ask for help
Needles I’ve came accustomed to
Now I don’t feel as blue
I’m not a child anymore
Since I know this illness has no cure
All I can do is life as well as I can
Even though this wasn’t the plan
It’s just hurdle that I had to get over
I sometimes wish it could have waited until I got older.