In Time
On the fifteenth day
Of April,
Of the eighteenth year,
Lay my motivation
To rub dry tears from my eyes
And have a great day.
The time frame of school
Lets my smile bloom--
surrounded with motion
And chatter--
I’m safe.
And the few voices there
that
collect my words,
As if they were butterflies
And not eels,
Make me feel worth something;
More than what
I was taught.
And I grew bitter
And with my return home,
It shut tightly--My liveliness--
With the key
In her hands.
It was my seventeenth
and
I remembered every birthday
Wishing a plan,
An escape,
Salvation,
But I knew flames only melted the wax
And shined a bit of light
On the days that flew by.
It burned though,
And each time
first degree burns
would turn more red
And red,
Until my brain felt scarlet
With tides of de-motivation,
depression,
Dejection.
I made a wish.
The black and blue eyes
I would no longer have to hide
When the day I can roam
transpires.
It's a wish and a dream,
Very reachable,
So close,
My tastebuds reach.
When I see the sun rise
With sleep cornering my eyes
In beautiful gradient skies,
I am amazed each morning,
That I'm here
And that everyday
I will try
So by the eighteenth year
I can live
A most yearned
Life
And no longer
Need to hide
The grin that
Tells no lie,
to the abyss
of my mind.
And the days following
Will be equipped with
Knowing everything
Will be okay,
And a smile
so motivational,
It can see that grand day.