Through My Eyes
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When I'm all alone,
When no one is around;
I let the feelings out,
I let the tears fall down.
No one sees these tears,
No one dreamy sadness;
No one sees the blood drip down,
Or feels my inner madness.
I have friends and family,
I have those who care for me,
But knowing my father willingly left,
Has cut me deeper than any can see.
I often wonder why he left,
Was I not something he could take?
And when the tears and blood flow together,
I ask myself, am I just a mistake?
To him I am only a burden,
A bill he must pay each month;
A number on the check he writes,
A child he does not want.
I've seen him and he's seen me,
Yet he kept on walking by;
No fatherly words of love were passed,
No tears came from his eyes.
But I have enough tears for both of us,
Enough pain to fill an eternity;
So when I carve Dad into my skin,
It's his loving face I see.
Maybe it's my imagination,
And maybe it isn't real;
But for that second... I can pretend...
He is feeling what I feel.