Untitled (2/25/2013)

A struggle, every moment you without
You pretend to care, I guess that would make me a
No, more specifically your personal fool
Each hug and kiss, just an empty meaningless lie

To think you were ever my carnation
My white rose, the yes of my no’s
But the poison I chose
The one sneaking it right under my nose
Our love, the cons and pros
Are now lain for all to be see

Murder, murder she wrote on this note
Spread across my chest
The pain vested in me
By way of the additional strength you provide

All the women I allowed to skip past to keep
You pale in comparison to
Oh my the pain of unbridled truth
That they all offered me much more than you could ever offer me
Time after time, tediousness of thought
Offers of true happiness and TLC
Were turned down for you

I, by you was judged upon the basis of faith
You had no idea what I was capable of was your statement
Claim to love Jesus but it seems you learned a lot from Satan
But I’m not upset, I’m sure you miss the sensation
Or the sin satiated that appetite
Get your head in straight
And get your life right
Just know that the next might not be so nice

The arguments and accusations
All appear to be nothing more than
Attempts at aversion of blame
To them not attached
Quantifiable proof, or even a name

Our difficulty you wanted rectify
But time after time you feed me excuses with an underhand
Accompanied by the delivery of underhanded lies
Hm, really makes me wonder the validity behind those proclaimed cries
Wondering how long ago broken were our bonds
Our “fragile” love ties
Broken from bind

You tell me that it was the loneliness
Taking its toll on you
It’s cool, just don’t try and take me for a fool
I was just as lonely as you
And I curtailed countless advances to keep you
To the temptation I should indeed have submitted to
Committed my very own crime of passion
But that would have made me no better

Maybe I should have lied to, and mislead you
As was my first impulse to…