It's so cold

Everytime I open my eyes this chill hits my spine & in that very moment Im completely frozen

My hearts been numb by the base & I've grown numb to the faces of the pain that I try to run from

When will this finally end

Im just looking for a friend

That will care for me & tell me it's alright

Guess it was too much to ask cause now im fallign & struggling trying to get back

I never thought this could be real & im really not sure how to deal with these emotions that are taking over 

So many things I wanna say but I can't at the end of the day so I have no other choice but to take them to the grave