Speak
I would like to mend and bend my words to the vastness of a certain height to make someone realize that I love to hear myself talk a lot.
So I speak
I say dumb things
I say smart things
Sometimes I’m funny
Most times I’m mean
But I speak
To not forget that my voice may belong to 1,000’s of other people
But it’s my turn to say what I’ve spoken or will speak
My turn to say what I need with this voice
Though I do not like it at most times,
It’s with me
But I’m not stuck with it
Because I can choose when to use my voice or when I don’t want to
And just because I don’t like my voice at most times because I can’t sing,
I do like some of the ideas that come out of it when it’s good and beneficial to me
I give out speeches in my head to an empty audience as if though people were actually listening to me
I preach out my ideas and theories on why one answer is only good for one person but terrible for another
These talks tear my mind apart because there is never one clear result to the price of the cost of living
And that if I start to speak too much for one subject,
Eventually my ideas will be cut off by another
That suddenly what I say doesn’t matter to anyone including myself
My idea’s suddenly become a blank canvas when i'm interrupted by something of more convenience
My spoken words are the ideas that I’ve relished or regretted in the so very few years of my life leading up to now
Even though my teacher said that by the time you get from the N to the W in the word “Now,”
a millisecond would have passed by so this current second is just another tiny part of a second going away
I learned to use that millisecond to speak