Someday
Hands shaking, palms sweaty
You just said, “It’s over”, but I’m not ready
The people and noises seem to disappear
And suddenly I can’t see so clear
I blink a few times and try to grasp
The feeling that I knew this would never last
These feelings were some of my greatest fears
Both love and heartache, I had guarded myself from for 17 years
Who wants to be in love? Not I.
Who wants to sleep on a tear-soaked pillow? Not I.
Who wants to hand someone their heart only to have to broken in 10 months? Not I.
10 months ago, I was naive
I believed the best and saw what I wanted to see
Caution signs were ignored
So now you’re the one I cry for
“I still love you”
Is that even still true?
But I say it back out of habit
It will take a long time to break this addict
I feel a chill wrapped in your arms
Is this true affection, or just another one of your charms?
Either way I’ll savor this embrace
And walk away quickly in order to save face
A dark hallway becomes my escape
And I feel my heart begin to change and shape
Now bitter it begins to say
“Why would you let someone treat you that way?”
“Will it ever really be okay?”
The darkness engulfs my quiet sobs
Alone
Detached
I feel truly robbed
Robbed of the last few years of childhood I had left
Robbed of the future I thought lay ahead
“Will it ever really be okay?”
I wish I could take myself back to that day
And tell myself that it all will be
Someday