Some Days
Some days I wake up,
to the sound of you slamming doors
I jump, like a scared child
But I'm not a child
I'm a woman
I crawl out of bed
It is still dark out but I know I can't go back to sleep
You come in and drag me out to the living room
I can still smell the liquor on your breath from the night before
You yell and slap me
I look out and see your socks still on the clothesline
I forgot to bring them in
Worrying about you the day before made me forget
And now I am paying the consequence
Why did it have to rain that night?
It's hard to look at you as tears cloud my eyes
Some days I wish you would leave, never to return
Some days I wish you would die
Some days I wish I had never met you
Some days I wish you had never changed
Yet, some days, I think I still love you
Most days, I know I still love you
That is why I stay
Although one day,
my frail body won't be able to take another beating
And every day,
I fear,
That day might be today.