Slam Behind the Curtain
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Look in the mirror, and what do you see, but an intelligent young girl with integrity
The outside exterior, all dressed in spendor, able to communicate with different worlds, instinctively
Raised with strict values from over overbearing parents,
But it is the Christian discipline, that counters undesirable actions
Always seeking achievement, and working hard to attain goals, seldom among others that I view to model as a role
African-American and accepted in all groups, different races, from different places, I rarely demonstrate my honest perpetrations
I am blue in a sea of greens, blending in, and reflecting what i see, but never to the extreme
No real close friends to call my own, only those that come and go without a connection to stay along
Why do I wear this mask, that allows me safe passage to and fro, that doesnt inflict conflict of judgmental blows
Am I a people pleaser that chooses to lay low, to avoid conflict and exposure of what I show, afraid that i will not be respected for my ideals and my principles
No one knows that i am haunted by thoughts of being alone, for if you look behind the curatin, what you might find, is not a self-assured person but one that is emotionally blind
Unable to be loved, or to love because of the times, where people are defiling and obscuring their dignity and effecting the sublime
Where will I be several years down the line, alone with my career, my hopes and dreams, and my sobriety
I must apply myself and find my place, where I am respected for my taste
No more fear from standing my ground, of being and individual that doesnt care about the crown
No more desire to fit in the group, only my passion to find my suit
My spade, a diamond, and my heart; a club that is diverse in thought
The wonderers and tinkers of society, that seek to preseve old fashioned views of unity
That can stand for purpose and fight the desire to fit in; and ambiguity
Clear cut and bold, removed from the shadow and behold
The inspired dreamer, leader, of life's new warrior, the kind of soldier that fights for life's order