I simply cannot cope anymore;

The pain is just too fucking much.

I'm really wondering if I will be able to convince myself to stay.

Or convince myself to live.

Or convince myself to die.

But I am truly convinced,

That simply surviving

Somewhere in the middle,

Not wanting to live,

And too guilty to die,

Really does a number on a man's state of mind.

Jarred Shah

7/7/2020

9:14pm