College is awesome.

A place to blossom.

Not all can go.

How do I know?

Years of sitting in classes with my mom.

Promising to sit quietly and calm.

Always dreaming this will be me.

Always smiling at what I thought could be.

But as I reached the high school finish line, 

Each step became a financial land mine.

The line began to move away.

I ran and ran, but it would not stay.

It reminds me of my dad.

Leaving me left me sad.

He had a new start.

And left a crushed heart.

We were left all alone.

Now I'm grown.

He never saw my milestones.

Leaving me many unknowns.

Was it me?

What did he see?

I've been replaced. 

Leaving me debased.

I always tried my best,

But the constant aching in my chest

Pulled me down to the ground -

Praying for him to come around.

That dream will never die.

It always makes me cry.

But I have to move on.

I'm E.B. White's swan.