I am me times infinity there is no one real me except the one that Ive put on mute in the back of my mind.

Theres the smart and motivated me who everyone sees who aspires to be a surgeon, get straight A's and and suceed but shes not the real one.

Theres bold , confident me who is loud and happy and outspoken and unafraid of the world and situations around her, but she isnt the real one.

Theres sweet and shy me who is thoughtful and caring and as soft and as feminine as an old hollywood actress, but she isnt the real one either.

Theres impulsive and reckless me who doesnt care about anything but the moment and as much as I love her, she isnt the real one either.

Theres upset and moodswing prone me who's personality changes at the drop of a hat and sadly thats the real me.

I'm happy,sad,sweet,shy,bold,upset,confident,reckless,uncaring, loud,quiet, depressed,impulsive,smart,stupid,motivated, scared,unafraid, thoughtful at any given moment on any given day, my moods change with the weather and wind, I scream from within for any and everyone to "look at me! look at me! the real me not the imposters!" but Ive put the real me on mute like a silent movie because honestly I dont want her to be heard , the imposters keep everyone else happy and make my life move smoother so I'll play my part to the T and smile like I dont hear her screaming in my heart