You neglect me

Hurt me 

and infect me

You direspect me

and to respect you is definetly

out the question.

All those times i requested

your love

and you left me 

broken and bitter

deemed as a quitter 

with no support system to help me not wither

you leave me feeling worthless

like what you say goes

forgetting that im human and i have my own goals

mainly finding love in my own home

trying to grasp on to my own hope

Leaning toward all the wrong things to fill all the voids 

that you broke

Tried to tell you about how i feel

but i choked

Knowing that in the end regradless what i said

my words will be revoked

in your favor.

Left me with a bruised heart and lack of trust

dont know what love is so i yearn for lust

dont know how to express myself without being cut

so i cut.

damaging myself physically

because mentally and emotionally im all fucked up

cant leave the house cause im always locked up

always played with the boys

so im all roughed up

Cant speak for my own 

Confidence aint in touch

Scriptures just aint enough

Enslaved to a mindset

without my mind set on God 

Tried to escape your bondage but I didnt make it out to far

tried to speak but i guess the waves didnt reach you

mute to your ears ASL couldnt speak to you

blind to my pain my white cane couldnt lead to you

so ill sit at night

wait for my life to pass me by

got nothing else to live for

so ill edure the strife

hope my God will hear my silent cries

prosperity will favor me before i die 

the love from my family will find its way

and i have to accept it wont be today