I used to think she was selfish
People are starving and she rejects food?
Food that is offered to her
Is body image that important to her?
It never was before, so why an obsession now?
I never understood her
Couldn't fathom why someone would just stop a normal human function
Eating! It's what humans do, right?
Does she look at me and think I'm fat?
No, she thinks that I'm perfect,
Always tells me that she wishes she were me.
That I am beautiful
Skinny...I hate that word.
I hate the stigma that surrounds those six little letters.
That one word has done so much damage.
Does she think I'm weird because I eat?
No, she understands why I eat
She understands why everyone eats
But if she does, then why is she denying herself food?
She knows eating is good for her and that she needs to do it,
So then why wouldn't she act like Nike and just do it?
I didn't know.
but I started to understand.
It has nothing to do with beauty
Thats what most people don't get.
This is no quest for the perfect figure
for shimmering blue eyes
or locks of golden blonde hair
Its not about skinny.
Or about beauty as a whole
Its about control.
I yell at her,
Not because I hate her
I want her to overcome the villain in her head
I get scared that she will be like this forever
Paralyzed by his disease
Shes in a complicated maze and I want to help her out.
But I've only been stuck in small mazes before,
never one as big as hers.
So I get frustrated,
but it's only because I love her.
I want to help her.
And I think I understand but still don't fully
Its been nine years but she still is a bully
To her body
To her own self esteem
She tears herself down
Her insides scream
Her body's not a temple, instead a tomb
where the roof is leaking and the walls are crumbling
Its not about her image, it's about her mind
Rational thinking has been left behind.
Evil is eating away at her brain
It pulses and tears at her tiny veins
She struggles to hold on to reality
But the voices in her head weakens her mentality
Its not on the surface, it's hidden below
As her body shrinks, she sees it grow