Ephesians 4:19New Living Translation (NLT)

19 They have no sense of shame. They live for lustful pleasure and eagerly practice every kind of impurity.

 

Shame.

 

Shame that will be never wiped away

a sad reaction to a weak moment

Or was it a preconceived bad idea

that made me move before atonement

 

If rotten-ness is such a part of me 

and if death still has dominion

can it drive me into captivity

apart then from God's opinion?

 

Shame and guilt … Siamese twins

grow like wards all over me

The image  of what shows within

to appear against what I ought to be

 

Is it failure that I hate

or the trust missing in myself?

Falling once … forever late

no more innocence … no more self

 

My first lie … forever made

me untruthful … just a liar

My first take … what was not mine

forever more … a thieving friar

 

My first lust … appeared just a desire

To become sin when I thought of her

Followed by greed … envy that fire

that burned and fried my innocence

 

I guess the "good" is just a memory

that’s what I lost from day one.

Forever gone … until Calvary

as innocence appeared through the blood

 

Still my shame … and still my guilt

but also hope … given in love

Carries me on … a life fulfilled

based on Grace from above

 

 

Jan Wienen