To See Myself

The journey came and stole me away
A path less travelled I knew not where I would go
Insanity had tarnished my soul
Up was down and right was left
The confusion roared like dragons at war
Time became a waste
Nothing mattered
I didn't matter
Who knew if this delusion would be lifted?
Watching life through a blindfold
The picture unclear
A photo was burning my skin
A tattooed taboo
Then the light lifted me
Caressing my wounds with healing ointment
I looked to old foes and trusted amigos
Blackness was all I found
Where could I search?
I breached the waves and crashed into a shrine
Rusted blood and stained stone
Who is this?
I pulled the weeds and scrubbed the altar
Days upon days blurred into weeks
My hands were black from the soot
My attire muddled and ragged
Exhaustion overtook me
Sleep was a nightmare but tonight it brought peace
I slumbered and fell from the clouds
I awoke to a mirror
I stood to face my evil
My eyes gazed upon the floor
I felt an urgency to look forward
Fear enveloped me for never would I want to look at me
Had a choice and if it meant death so be it
I looked up my neck creaked against the weight of my mind
A surprise in the reflection caught my breath
Disbelief is an understatement
What I saw was an eternal realm
A hope so vast and numerous
Even my sorrow could not keep my smile at bay
I was not standing, nor sitting
Hands were carrying me, holding me at a height higher than my own
Many gleamed back and nodded encouragingly
In the middle, was not who I expected
The tabernacle I labored over was shining brightly
Of brilliant marble the light showered over the smoothed and polished edges
It was me, this whole time
In the world I cannot see perfectly
However, God gave me the tools to see his glory
His glory is in me
I turned and floated across the golden gate
Bowing before his majesty
I will not be removed
Down I lay my life for he created a Goddess
Out of me, a mere mortal tainted by impurities
Now I worship him in gratitude and happiness
My movements are my own but I work for him
Time is mine to live and to live is to die for a purpose
Memory remain imbedded in my soul
Replenish my tank with unending energy
To receive light and explode in sunlight
Dream and keep dreaming
Remember the forgotten
Forget the useless
Appreciate this charm
Changing me is changing perspective
It’s productivity in progressive optimism
A fresh start
Becoming the potential.

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